Today is the last day of December, which has proven to be the first bright December in many, many years for me. It’s also the eve of the new year, which happens to be my favorite holiday. It is a time to look back on the past, let go of things you no longer need, …
I woke up Christmas morning at five o’clock in the morning. There was no alarm. No light shining through the window into my eye. No noise in the house. No reason at all for me to wake up, but I was wide awake. It’s Christmas, I thought. It’s Christmas… and I’m happy. I threw off …
…and I can not find the words to express how happy I am right now.
It’s midnight in December and I have been reborn A mended soul awaits next year An earnest smile worn I have my friends to thank for this And thank myself as well I wake each day to enjoy life No longer dreading Hell The past is put behind me now I cast ahead my gaze …
Friday is my birthday. I’m throwing myself a party, because I haven’t had a birthday party since I was 26. You’re all invited. No presents, please. 🙂
Nine days of sunshine in the month of depression was a pretty good run, I think. Last night, however, the run ended, and my Santa hat had been left at work, unable to save me from despair. I fought it off as best I could, but in the end, I drank myself into a stupor …
My mom just called me, at work, to tell me that she was walking down the DVD aisle of Wal-Mart with my aunt, and she needed a Christmas list from me… Mom: “You said you were watching a lot of the series stuff in Netflix lately. They have Deadwood.” Me: “I just finished Deadwood.” Mom: …
Last night was the first full night of sleep I’ve gotten since Saturday. Why was I so tired? I tortured myself. I pushed myself too hard on the treadmill as soon as I got home, doubling my usual jog speed and running twice as far. I thought I was having a heart attack, so I …
Five days into the depression season, and one disappointment later, I’m still upbeat. I was a little sad for about an hour, but then I put on the Santa hat. Also, I weighed in this morning (which I consider cheating since I’ve been reserving Fridays for this) and I’ve lost 25 pounds in the past …
It’s midnight in December and here I am again Wondering where I’m headed to Dismayed with where I’ve been Perhaps I want too much from life Expecting far-flung dreams Perhaps the bar is set too high At least that’s what it seems I’ll change the way I think of things And how I see the …