When something goes wrong, it seems like everyone wants someone or something to blame. Maybe it’s in our nature to shift responsibility, to clear our conscience. I’ve been stewing on this for days now, and it would be so damned easy to blame Depression for my actions, blame my father for being a role model …

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“You’re like the calmest person in the world,” she said to me. She isn’t the first person to say it. I’ve often been described as stoic, unemotional, non-responsive, et cetera, sometimes in a less-than-flattering way. It’s true that I come across as immovable, though. I take what life gives me with little complaint, just as …

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I just weighed in downstairs. My rate of loss has slowed down because I’ve been snacking more and eating like crap and avoiding the treadmill more often, but I’m still losing. Today’s weight is 299. This is the first time since 1995 that I’m under 300 pounds. THAT makes my mood improve quite a bit. …

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